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I am a woman learning to heal from past sexual, emotional, and physical abuse along with neglect. I have been diagnosised with DID and Complex PTSD both direct causes of the abuse. jazmineo1112@yahoo.com

Saturday, January 14, 2012

2012?! WOW!!

WOW!! Has it really been since last year that I've written anything down??
You will have to forgive me. Writing sometimes causes switching and others to come into the "foyer" of "our house". This isn't the best situation for me sometimes. So I prefer to stay away rather than deal with the ones that want to come out and make me lose time. (I will talk about how "our house" is set up in a later post.)

Well, this year is going well so far. I am on medical leave from work.  Although I won't be receiving a paycheck, and that stresses me, the relief of stress from work is greater. I thought that I would never get out of that job. I could NEVER see myself doing anything but that job.  Not because I liked it, because I couldn't find a way out. 

A very talented and smart woman, Dr. S., showed me that someone else chose that job for me and that I am smart and capable of doing anything I want to do.  Imagine someone in your life making you go to school for something you HATE and then you doing that job for the rest of your life.  It's like a death sentence to me.

Luckily, Dr. S is helping me find my JOY in life (as she calls it) and I am currently in school for a new profession!!  I am VERY excited about this.  I feel as though I am just beginning to live my life. I will keep you informed how things are going with school and my journey into my NEW LIFE!

While I am not ready to be set off on this new road alone, I am learning to WALK, not run, this journey I call a MARATHON.


  1. I like the raindrops on the window background...I tend to see my life through raindrops...I hope today was ok for you. I don't know if I would hope it would be "good" because I'm not sure that is the best word to describe even the hoped for outcome of your meeting with family members. I do hope you are safe and supported by the people you choose to have with you on your healing journey.

  2. Thanks sojouner. I am glad that you are a constant right now for support. My meeting was great! I am going to write about it.