I was so happy to see her but at the same time very nervous that my mother might show up at any minute. I am not sure what I was so nervous about. There isn't anything she could do to me now. She is sick and dying and I am a STRONG WOMAN! However, the fear from Julie, a child alter, was still there. I spent about 2 hours with my grandmother. She told me how happy she was to see me. She also told me that I look much happier than the last time she saw me. That made me feel good. At least I know that by me telling I am happier on the outside as well as the inside.
We sat hand in hand while we ate lunch. While I was driving she reached over and grabbed my hand to hold. It was very sweet. It let me know how much I was loved and how it feels to have someone that really, truly cares about you.
Liz
beautiful.
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I am working on building a new relationship with my grandmother and uncle. One where I am able to learn to trust someone again.
By visiting them, I am able to see the beautiful ways a family should interact. A huge difference from the way I was raised.
I have since visited them and it went well. I am very glad that I finally BROKE SILENCE!