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I am a woman learning to heal from past sexual, emotional, and physical abuse along with neglect. I have been diagnosised with DID and Complex PTSD both direct causes of the abuse. jazmineo1112@yahoo.com

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Depression-Whirlwind Effect

I can feel myself sinking.  It's like a spinning down into a drain.  I can feel the negativeness affecting me.  Save me before I go further down. Dr. S. said it's always been there I can just feel it now. So what do I do now? I don't want to switch. I don't want a child to take over. I want to feel...I want to live in consciously.  Can I do this? How much longer until I'm all the way down and no longer conscious?

Stay with it Liz...Don't leave...You can do this...Stay in the present...Nothing can hurt you now...You are safe...


  1. Even knowing I am safe .. the more I get into trauma therapy and feel it for myself the more I switch...My P says it will be like this for awhile..the more you feel the more aware you become..at least that is how it is for me...it sucks...but it just is...hang in there....As always...XOXOXOXOXO

  2. Thanks Bongo. I completely understand. The more therapy, the more feelings. And the more feelings, the more switching happens. It is nice to know I am not alone and others truely get it. They understand the "Whirlwind Effect"!