I have been "fighting" with other alters to stay out more. When something is a trigger, stressful, or seen as a threat to the system, the alters want out.
Last night I was fighting with Jazmine, Jaz, who is 16 and likes to party. After our rough day/week at work she just wanted to "go get a drink". Well, Jaz we can't do that. We have children to look after and your one drink would turn into many drinks.
Last night I was also fighting with Julie, Jules, who is 5, scared, and sad. After a situation caused a trigger she wanted out. I'm not sure why. Seems like she would want to run and hide but instead she wanted out. Possibly to talk to Dr. S about the trigger and how to get help.
I don't remember fighting so hard before and having so many downs. Dr. S said that's because I used to just let the alters take over and I would run. This is so true.
It was a rough night because of this. But guess what?!? I stayed out the whole time!! I did not run from the stress or the trigger. I stayed with my feelings. Man was it hard!
I guess I'm blogging about this to ask: Does anyone else feel this way sometimes? Does anyone else feel like they have to "Fight" to stay in control of the system?